sat. 7.4.09
happy 4th!!one of those muffins with a dab of peanut butter.-big serving of berries-went to lunch at a hotel on the lake and had a veggie meal cooked specially since there was nothing on the menu; there was some saitan or tempeh in it with beans, veggies; really good salad.-one glass wine-stopped by this small russian community and bought some unbelievable strawberries and had about 1/2 pint.-we had some people coming over to Scott's mom's place and Scott and I have made onion rings a few times so we did it again-really thin beer-battered but something was wrong with the heat and they were too greasy...but still good!-didn't eat much after that except chips and plenty of beer.wkt.same run-70 min. with some sprints and 2 sets of push ups with legs on park bench and leg lowering sets.very good wkt!

fri. 7.3.09
in minnesota at the lake house.-Mom's mom makes these wonderful little muffins made from different kinds of bran, and uses apple juice instead of most of the oil, and they are delicious-1 of those-lots of berries-Scott, my mom and I went to the Fertile fair of Polk county. I was hoping to be able to eat some good junk food but we got there a bit too early so didn't eat there. We got back home-big salad with left over egg salad, veggies, cheese, salsa dressing-3 beers-grilled veggies and big spinach salad with feta cheese; tomato;-2 beers-I was craving crap and everyone was talking about dairy queen stuff so they had a buster bar in the freezer; Scott said it was ice cream bar with chocolate coating; with fudge, nuts, etc. Well I ate it but was disappointed because there weren't enough nuts and chocolate.-chips and salsa-3 glasses winewkt.my goal was to run 3/4 days at the lake-ran 70 min. very proud of myself

thur. 7.2.09-we had a 6am flight out of newark so we got up at 3:45-I made sandwiches for the plane-small rolls with the dough pulled out-cheese and lettuce and onion, tomato, mustard and a bit mayo.-I had 1 roll and then another one with just one half of the roll-one bloody mary-stopped at Scott's mom's house in grand forks and had lunch-one beer-tiny roll with egg salad-excellent salad with greens, veggies, nuts and fruit-I ate such crap the rest of the day when we got to north dakota-small bag potato chips-small bag crunchy cheese doodles-got to Scott's mom's lake house and had-we got tons of visitors at the lake and got some pizza-I didn't think I was hungry so of course I ate the equivalent of 2.5 full slices of regular pizza-3 beers

Tue. July 1
I keep going back and forth. I was certainly satisfied with the way I look several days in the morning these last few weeks. Then I hear myself saying but I need to do more to get totally lean, but then I obviously don't care enough because I eat and drink inappropriately!!! I find myself obsessing about eating (wanting to that is!), and how many more calories can I burn and then I just don't care and want to have fun. My one sister and neice pointed this out to me---that is what they were saying to me from the beginning; that the extreme effort isn't worth it.
Had a great conversation with my client S. the other morning about this. What is the goal for what we are doing? I could for example just take a bunch of diet pills for a few days, take a picture and say ok-done! So I am finding out that for me to be leaner than I have gotten to is not worth it for me....sometimes I feel I am saying that because I failed-that maybe I can't do any better but that is part of goal setting, and re-evaluating; this is what I talk to my clients about exactly----what do you want, and then keep asking yourself it is still worth it.....do you still want it. My biggest thing was to see what it would take to get really lean in my midsection and it SUCKS!!!! What it takes is not having fun the way I want, and working out for the sake of working out instead of what I love. I caught myself thinking I shouldn't go on a long bike ride because I wouldn't burn as many calories as compared with going to the gym and working really hard on the cardio machines (from where I live it takes awhile to get to places where you can ride without a lot of traffic). That is not what I want! One of my clients said because I am skinny everywhere else, and just store my body fat so unevenly that I will look anorexic all over when my midsection is really cut, and I am one of those people that should do lip suction!!!!!
Anyway, the last pictures I posted are ones I am happy with. I have period bloat right now and so will take more when I look good.
We are going to north Dakota for the 4th tomorrow and I decided several weeks ago that I would officially end this before we leave, and that is where I am. I will try to be good there though and see if I can get more good pictures before the 11th----but they love cheese so much there! And bread! And pizza! And beer! Stay tuned. I won’t post until I get back because there is no internet at the lake cabin where we will be!!

Tue. June 30
-thought I was biting into half of the falafel wrap I never started last night but realized it was Scott’s schwarma wrap! So I spit that out.
-got scrambled egg whites/cheese sandwich; ate half
-ate the other half minus half the bread around noon
-1/4 of the falafel wrap
-3 pieces American cheese wrapped around arugula
-huge bowl of bean soup; I took lots of broth
-3 glasses wine
-small frozen yogurt

Wkt.
1 hour cardio
-about 8 sets of cable:-crunches
-chops
-single chest press
-single shoulder press
-single row
Great workout

Mon. june 29
Flat bagel with cream cheese. Interesting….I ate half at 7am and the other half around noon. I was not hungry between then…..when I eat the oatmeal I am hungrier, then the protein stuff ---maybe I need more carbs…..?
-one apple
-small frozen yogurt
-medium veggie soup
From the Mediterranean place around the corner:
-half of a delicious spinach roll
-2 grape leaves
-half pita with hummus
-3 glasses wine

Wkt. in the park
-between clients; 5 sets of:
-10 jump lunges each side
-12-15 push ups with legs on bench, hands on ground
-15-20 sit ups on bench

sun. june 28
got home on the redeye about 8am.
My entire family went to my parents' for my mom's 80th birthday party as well as their anniversary.
-one shot of jaegermeister (a tradition)
-one beer
-at the restaurant
-salad
-seared tilapia with 3 shrimp; a little of the rice; veggies
-3 glasses wine
-several bites of different kinds of cakes for dessert.
-1.5 slices pizza at night
no wkt.